Friday, January 13, 2012

A catch up photo post

Just a quick catch up post with a few of my favorite pics from a bunch of photo shoots I did over the last couple of months.




A Christmas card for the Carrolls
The Snyder family



The Jameson family







The Keniston Family

The Haskins Family



My Owen:)



My Truett:)





Zach!



Emma!















Just thinking

It is crazy to me how different raising the fifth kid is compared to the first few.  I mean this with all honesty, that I LOVE each of my kids equally as much and have treated them all with the same amount of love and attention.  (I'm not just saying that because I know Jessalyn reads this blog either....Hi Jessalyn:)   I think all parents of more than one child can understand what I'm saying.  I suppose I will just explain the difference between the first and the fifth as far as my perspective.

Jessalyn was the one that taught me this love...the kind of love that only a mother has for her children.  This is something that can not be explained but is completely understood the second (well..maybe not right that second) you have a baby.  My love for her was new to me and I was 'in her face' as much as I am with Truett and am equally in love with her as I am with Truett.

With your firstborn you tend to look forward to milestones more.  I remember always wondering what it will be like to have a baby that can sit up, or crawl, or eat breakfast by herself, or pull up on stuff...or walk, talk, learn to read, lose teeth, go to school, play sports...etc etc.  That list could go on and on.  It seems that as they get older you start to dread the future milestones...like...Junior High, High School, driving, and most of all college!!  There comes a point when you realize that you want life to slooooow down, and that point for me is right now.

Besides Jessalyn, every other "baby" that I had, had a two year old sibling.  That in and of itself is a life that can't be explained until you experience it.  Fun?  Yes.  Crazy?  Yes!  Does it take away from how much you love the youngest?  No.  Like I said, I have loved each of my babies the same.  But you learn to love the youngest in the midst of a certain sense of chaos.  For me this meant, while potty training an older sibling or eventually, while potty training one sibling and dragging another to and from school and sports.  I wouldn't change a single thing about the spacing between my kids.

I guess I've just realized that "how" I am able to love Truett does seem a little different from the rest.  Being that  there is four years between Truett and Owen it's almost like having my first again, but without the anticipation of what life will be like when they hit all the major milestones.  And honestly, it's awesome.  I do feel like I spent much of the day's with Jessalyn anticipating and looking forward to a new stage of life...both for her excitement and my own.  It IS fun to watch your kids learn new things and fun to be proud to watch them as THEY are proud of their own new accomplishments.  And with that said, I am just as proud and practice certain "tricks" with Truett just the same way I have with all the other kids.  It's not that I want to slow it down....but I have learned that with Truett I am able to just live in the moment a bit better.

He's learning to sit now..which is fun.  It's fun for him, its fun for all the bigger siblings..and it's a new way to entertain him for me.  I enjoy it...and will help him master this, but only because that is where he is now.  I am able to just enjoy this stage as it comes...and really, we've lived through many of the milestones that a child can have and it's kind of less of a big deal (to me) as they reach them.  And this concept alone is what allows me to "love" Truett a little differently.  Not MORE...but just different.

Why am I sharing this?  I'm not really sure.  I guess it's just something that I've been thinking about and trying to wrap my brain around lately.  I guess I can't say enough how much I am enjoying Truett.  Just plain enjoying him.  There are lots of people who have had a few kids and then taken a break and thought "well...I'd love to have another but the thought of 'starting over'.....".  I personally highly recommend it.  I remember thinking this of other families...thinking "wow, I can't imagine having such an age gap between my kids"  (only because what I 'knew' was an approximately 2 year space).  Now that I've experienced it I know that there is nothing like it!  Especially if you've experienced family life and parenting as I have...having the first few (or four:) kids just about every two years.  The dynamic of our family has changed for sure.  It is difficult at times as we experience "baby life" along side of "elementary school life".  I just know there are some out there who think they might want another but hesitate because it's "too late" and the older kids are too old....for me, there has been nothing better!  Having my fifth baby is just the opposite of "been there, done that"...in reality it's a whole new experience, one very different from the last four.  

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

New Year

Wow.  It's been so long since my last post, that it seems everything here on blogspot has changed!

I've thought of many things that I would like to strive for in 2012...you know, the usual things like 'play my drums more', and 'read more' etc.  I even thought about starting a 365 picture thing..which really, would be pretty easy (using instagram)....but I decided that overall I just really want to be able to focus on my family.  Somehow Josh and I manage to fit a TON of stuff into our lives....and often times, even though kids are with us, they are sort of in the background of what is going on.  I honestly don't think this is a bad thing all the time.  There are things that we do that are important and that are good for our kids to see us involved in.

Really though, right now is an intense time in raising our kids!  Between having a baby AND elementary school kids it's just tough.  Sometimes our lives are so busy and we find ourselves doing 6 different things at a time...and one thing that gets neglected is really listening to them.  They all come home from school with many things to say and stories to tell..mostly about what they did in gym that day or on the playground.  These stories usually come out during times that are busy..like for example, Ethan LOVES to chit chat while he's in the shower.  This is fine, but when we have to get four kids through the shower it gives them each about a 7 minute (yes..we use a timer) limit each before we run out of hot water!  Ethan can't chit chat and wash his hair at the same time..multitasking is not one of his strong suits!  Anyway...not only is Ethan trying to multitask, but so am I..often helping him in the shower, while cutting someone else's nails and holding a baby at the same time.  So when he starts talking...I'm honestly like "uh huh...yep...ohhhh" and not actually hearing a single thing he's saying.  That's what I want to work on.  I want to work on looking my kids in the eyes when they are talking to me...even if I'm trying to do a gazillion other things at the same time.  What I really want to do is drop the other things I'm doing (well..not literally "drop" them...pooooor Truett:)...but I want to stop and focus on what they are telling me.  Trust me when I tell you that this is hard for me...when I have four kids that all want to tell me something at the same time, while I'm in the middle of something else....it's difficult.  Not because I don't want to hear what they have to say..I DO, I really really do...it's just that the busyness of life really gets in the way.  Sadly.

I read a blog post from a friend recently about choosing a Theme Word for 2012...you can read her take on this subject HERE .  My initial thought was the word "patience".  I definitely need that, but honestly, I don't think that will change from year to year.  I need to work on that every second of my life!  But, as I typed my thoughts above I am thinking that my theme word for this year should be "listen"...because there's a whole lot more in my life that I could spend more time listening to than just my kids!  I can listen more in prayer, while reading God's word...I can listen more intently to my husband and to the people I come in contact with on a daily basis.  There is a lot of listening to be done...and not just listening, but actually HEARING.  So that's it..my theme word for 2012 is LISTEN.

And with that said, yes, I do have some of the usual "resolutions" in mind.  I really really do need to get playing the drums more often.  I don't practice.  I've now been playing the drums for 6 years so I can't really live on the "I'm a new drummer" excuse anymore.  I really need to be improving...I want to be improving.  I also want to write in this blog more often.  I just love having this as a journal of sorts for the family.  As for the 365 idea...I will likely share a picture a day all year (I do this without thinking about it)...but just to keep the things that I "have to do" to a minimum...I'm not committing to that:)  Oh, and I have this little idea for a children's book that I would actually love to get written.  I definitely do NOT claim to be a writer and have no clue as to how one might go about writing a book...but I have an idea that I think is original (I think?) and really would like to run with it if at all possible.  We'll see if that actually happens....

And just because I can't post a blog entry without a picture....who wouldn't want to focus on looking into these eyes and listening to what they have to say to me?!?!

Friday, October 28, 2011

Too busy to post?

I'm not sure why:) I really hate that I'm neglecting this blog! I blame it on facebook. Or maybe my five kids....or something. It's definitely not MY fault:)


We have been transitioning through lots of changes in the last month or so, along side of keeping up with the usual day to day life of our crazy busy family. It is ALL good and we are feeling very blessed.

Josh has taken the position of Associate Pastor in Training at Calvary Bible Church. This is an amazing opportunity for him and so far he is LOVING it. He feels like he is finally right where he should be. A good feeling for sure. He works full time for the church which has been an adjustment but one that is definitely much better for our family as a whole.

In the meantime we were able to get through the first couple of months of school and soccer season and are enjoying a quick respite before basketball season starts...all the while caring for little Truett who is an absolute JOY.

Such a quick update...and of course, I will leave you with lots of pics:)




Truett with the hat that Karole-Ann made.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Sweet Baby Truett

A quick little 'photo session' with Truett....












Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Welcome Truett!!

I can't believe that it has been over a week since that day! I can't quite imagine life without him here...and honestly, he would quite likely still be in my belly today if we hadn't evicted him sooner. I'm glad we did, because he was/is perfectly healthy and was 8 lbs 4 oz at 39 weeks. Given another week or so we probably would have made it into the 9 lb range...and I'll gladly stay below that!


I like to write out the birth story, so for people who don't want to hear the details just skip past this part.

We had to be at the hospital at 7am on Monday, August 1st. I was 3 cm already so they started pitocin...3cc's. I started contracting almost instantly and they gradually upped the pitocin. I think we reached 12cc's total. The contractions really weren't the horrible 'pitocin contractions' that I have heard so much about. I feel like they came on gradually and were completely and totally manageable. I think I was still playing 'words with friends' during contractions and not really have to breath through them, although at that point I was having to focus a little bit. We walked the halls for a while to help bring baby down and I was checked at about 11am and was 5cm. Still pretty comfortable..I think I was rating my pain at a 4 or 5...but the contractions were obviously helping as I was dilating.

The contractions started coming about a minute apart..and were definitely 'good' ones...but not terrible. The nurses don't like to see pitocin induced contractions any closer than 2 minutes (maybe 1.5 min) apart, so she stopped it all together...thinking my body was probably kicking in on it's own. She was wrong..and the contractions were still coming every 3 minutes, but they were so weak that I was able to fall asleep a little bit. Josh headed out to find some lunch for himself at this point too.

At 1:30 Dr. Ebner came in to check me and break my water. I was still only 5 cm (hadn't changed since 11am). He broke the water and it was a FLOOD in my bed. I've had my water broken like this 3 times before and never felt anything like it. It made me laugh..it was weird. It was pretty much instant that I started getting real...REAL contractions...the kind that I recognize and hate:) It is amazing how much breaking my water changes things for me...it has in all of the other labors as well. They wanted me to stand for a bit to help things move along..and probably to change my bed too:) I stood up, unfortunately directly over my sandals that were sitting next to the bed, and it was another FLOOD of fluid. It just kept coming. I was laughing so hard. The nurses said they hadn't seen that much fluid in a long time and thought it was funny. They had to call housekeeping in to mop up under the bed it was so bad. No wonder I was measuring so big at all the appts!

I sat in a rocking chair while they cleaned up and changed my bed and the contractions were getting really good. I was rating them at an 8 or 9 at this point. Definitely getting intense. I got back in bed and then things got a little scary. Truett's cord was around his neck (which I knew from the 31 week u/s). During the peak of each contraction, his heart beat would be completely gone. They put me on oxygen, and proceeded to flip and flop me around (during the peak of the worst transitional contractions) trying to get his heart beat back. Although this was scary for me thinking about baby, I was more just trying to get through the pain of the contraction and all of the pushing and rolling and manipulating they had to do to me. I did think for a second that if I was only 5 cm..we had a ways to go and I wondered how he was going to handle the rest of this labor. I had c-section in mind and apparently so did the nurses as Josh tells me they did call down to the OR to have them ready in case it was necessary. It wasn't long after this when I was feeling the pressure of baby coming down.

They checked me again and sure enough I was fully dilated...and ready to go. As soon as he started coming down it took 2 contractions to push him out. At 3:09 (an hour and a half after having my water broken) he was born. He was nice and pink..even with the fact that he was strangling himself with his cord the whole time. He got 9 and 9 on his apgars and was just perfect! I was, of course, relieved!!!

Josh cut the cord, and I got to hold him right away. He was weighed in at 8lbs 4oz and 20 inches long. We called our parents...who had our kids and were very excited to have everyone meet him!!

At that point, my placenta was being stubborn and didn't want to come out. This has happened before with me (with Jessalyn) and it was not a good thing. We waited there for a good hour..which is about the longest you can wait before something has to be done about it. Unfortunately, they had to knock me out for an hour and "manually remove" my placenta. Like I said, this has happened before and the first time they didn't have time to knock me out. Let's just say that even though I lost more than an hour of the first moments of Truett's life, I was very glad to have been able to be asleep for this procedure! I remember seeing the kid's feet walk down the hall and hearing their voices as they came in..and then I was asleep. I woke up, all cleaned up with the shakes really bad. I waited about a half hour with the shakes hoping they would go away a bit because I didn't want the kids to see me like that.

Finally I was able to invite them all back in the room.

Josh was amazing as usual. He knew when he needed to jump in and help me and he knew exactly what to do. He's a pro at this labor and delivery stuff. He became an awesome photographer as well...as he had to record and photograph that hour that I was missing when the kids were meeting Truett for the first time. With the pics and video, I honestly don't feel like I missed a thing!

We were able to head home on Tuesday afternoon...to a nice homecoming with Kirsten and Mark (who made dinner!), Shara and Jake, Heath and Karole-Ann, Ashley and Alicia and Karen. What better way to introduce Truett to our crazy lifestyle:) The first night was OK...I'd say a little 'discombobulated'...as I tried to fumble through the logistics of where to change him and feed him...and just getting to know him. It didn't take long though, and we have already settled into quite a nice routine. The first 4 or 5 days he was eating every 2 hours day and night...and it took about an hour for him to eat..and burp. My milk came in on day 3 (which is early for me..so I was HAPPY!)...and that helped him transition himself to a 3 hour schedule. At this point (9 days in) he is on a 3 hour schedule...maybe giving me a 4 hour stretch at night but that is not consistent. Nursing is going great...the easiest time of it yet.

Josh took the older kids to the Soulfest each day of Tru's first week. It was awesome to have everyone (including Josh) home during the day, but then nice to have it be just me and Truett in the afternoon. We would take a nice long nap and just had time to enjoy each other. I was able to get to the Soulfest two nights that week...to see Petra and 10th Avenue North...and visit with some friends too!

Having Josh back to work has been hard. Not having to do with being a mother of 5, but more so because I just miss him! He had a nice 10 day vacation and I just like having him around. He went back to work and a week full of meetings and things that have put us back to reality real fast. Poor guy, I don't think he even held Truett yesterday:( If so, it was very brief.

I honestly was worried even to the end of the pregnancy about how Truett might affect the dynamic of our family. I KNEW that we would love him like crazy, but still...at the point of pregnancy it is sometimes hard to believe. Truett has definitely changed the dynamic here...but for the better for sure. I can't imagine not having him and just love him to pieces. He is so easy and chill...sleeps through anything (he has to!). All of the kids are loving him like crazy..it's sometimes hard to manage everyone's 'Truett holding time'. He is smothered with kisses and hugs and is in no need of attention! Of course, there is some adjusting that everyone has to work through...and of course, Owen seems to be the one with the most issues. He doesn't take it out on me or Truett really...but he really seems to be taking it out on Ethan and Luke. I think Owen is trying to figure out his place now. He's not the baby...and yet sometimes his older brother's don't include him the way he wants to be included. It puts him in an odd place...and is definitely frustrated at times. I know from experience that it takes the kids about a month to really fully adjust to a new baby in the house....and am prepared to try to be as patient as I can especially with Owen as this whole idea of being a big brother is completely new to him.

Overall, our transition to a family of 7 really couldn't be going any more smoothly. Besides losing a little (or a lot) of sleep....I feel great and have recovered quickly.

I said it again for the video camera just after delivering Truett...."I am NOT doing that again". Funny how quickly that thought changes. Not that we have plans to do it again, but like usual...I can't quite imagine NOT experiencing it all again. The thing is..I KNOW I am crazy. I hate it...I dread labor....the entire 9 months of pregnancy I dread labor. And yet...give me a sweet little newborn baby and I completely forget it all!!!

Of course, I will post a bunch of pics from the day....

















LOVE him!!! We feel SO blessed to have been given another baby!!! He is amazing.